On Consciousness

On Consciousness

Sobre la conciencia

Lorís Simón Salum

Some time ago I performed a research study  that focused on the concept of inner transformation. I find the subject powerful. As I witnessed each participant make sense of their profound life changes, the inequality of their emotional awareness became evident. Unequivocally, these individuals had been through life events that caused strong emotional reactions, yet their capacity to adequately verbalize it varied. In turn, their ability to integrate these experiences into their internal sense of self also varied. I am captured by the bond between emotional awareness and a higher degree of consciousness. What is consciousness? What is the thing that permeates our existence yet remains a scientific mystery?

There is the obvious difference between being awake and not awake, between having a fully functioning mind versus struggling with a brain lesion. Author and professor Antonio Damasio describes consciousness as knowledge, more specifically, wordless knowledge (2000). The use of language to define our experience is somewhat of a last step. Knowing does not begin with words or thoughts. Your body goes through life receiving information from your skin, eyes, ears, nose and tongue. This is how we receive knowledge. Think about that for a second. Moment by moment, the influx of data about the life we navigate initiates through the body. Picture those continuous instants where your body sits with wordless knowledge before it is translated onto what Damasio calls an image (which is not exclusive to the visual field): the smell of old books, the laptop’s screen, the aftertaste of hot tea. And then, something magical happens. We create a relationship to our images, a feeling. Jung (1979, p. 32-33) elucidates:

Every psychic process has a value quality attached to it, namely its feeling-tone. This indicates the degree to which the subject is affected by the process or how much it means to him (in so far as the process reaches consciousness at all). It is through ‘affect’ that the subject becomes involved and so comes to feel the whole weight of reality.

At its origin, the founding moment of an emotion is our entry to “the whole weight of reality.” An emotion: a sense of direction, a call for movement in the body, mind or yet another emotion.
And then there was the word.

To envision how we sense the world and how we relate to it at its most basic level takes me to the era of Adam and Eve. There was innocence until there was knowledge, consciousness. Maybe even before that, the story of the big bang: there was nothing and then there was something. In our own bodies, the story continues. An eternal miracle happening right at the fingertips of a merely human eye.

Consciousness as a stream of emotions that soon branches out into millions of possibilities with the potential to touch beauty and suffering. To be conscious is to feel your way through life. I do not think and therefore I am. I feel, and therefore I am. Does that change anything in the world? Does it matter?

I often wonder about the images beneath the images: the human experiences that don’t make it into the verbal realm and get pushed into a separate universe. I’m reminded of the movie Inception (2010), where worlds are captured within worlds. Anyone who’s ever been in therapy may know what it feels like to fish something from the depths of you and see it for what feels like the first time. New knowledge, new consciousness, stemming from within and not from the outside. You catch an image that wasn’t fully an image. An image beneath an image. Wordless knowledge. Perhaps Freud would disregard this as the all too well-known unconscious. Maybe Schwartz would label this as a refugee part. Jung would argue about its roots in the collective unconscious. A neuroscientist would simplify it as unprocessed memories held in the hippocampus or amygdala. It certainly feels bigger than words, larger than any one definition.

It requires a certain mental flexibility to imagine the uniqueness of one’s inner world juxtaposed with the universality of the human experience. To feel is to connect with something so real it transcends time. “Eternity is that dimension of here and now which thinking and time cuts out… The experience of eternity right here and now is the function of life” (Campbell, 1988). Two realities at the same time, one the size of a star, the other the size of a cell. Eternal. How beautiful and how terrifying it is to be conscious. A marvel and a curse. A weight to be carried without any permission ever being asked. What do I make of this? Luckily, I don’t have a choice.


Damasio. A.R. (1999). The feeling of what happens: body and emotion in the making of consciousness. Harcourt Brace.

Jung, C.G. (1979) Aion: researchers into the phenomenology of the self (2nd ed.) (R.F.C. Hull, Trans.). Princeton University Press.
Nolan, C., Nolan, C., & Thomas, E. (n.d.). Inception.
PBS. (1988). Joseph Campbell and the power of myth. United States


LorisLorís Simón Salum is a psychotherapist in private practice in Houston, TX. She is the author of Ensoulment: Exploring the Feminine Principle in Western Culture (2016), as well as the film director of the multi award-winning documentary Ensoulment: A Diverse Analysis of the Feminine in Western Culture (2013). She was the Creative Director for Literal Magazine for over 10 years. Some of her projects included Literally Short Film Festival, Literal’s short international film festival, and Literally Everything, Literal’s podcast. You can find her at

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